My mis-interpretation of Life

Long time no post...

2005-12-23T10:47:13+01:00

Hey guys

I am sorry I have not updtated in a while! I have been keeping on top of my Opera journal to be honest with you!

I have had a manic time really and anyone who would like to read the opera journal - email me and I'll give you the link!

So I wanted to pop on and say Have a VERY Merry Xmas and New Year...

Love and Kisses

JM xx

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The mother of all updates

2005-11-28T11:49:14+01:00

Okay... I have changed my mind once more and this time it is for good!

I was wondering if S was maybe to one as I was upset over him. But to be honest with you that post ws made one day before my second date with D! So I guess I hadn't made up my mind at all!

Anyway... I have been very slack at updating and things are now going to change!!!

I believe that things happen for a reason in this life. I thought that my split from D was the worst thing that could possibly ever happen to me... But during that time, I met someone else, thought they were amazing but soon realised they weren't all they were cracked up to be and far from it! I also found my independence and my real friends.

Since getting back in contact with D, I have been a much happier person that he is back in my life. When he asked me to get back together with him, I was speechless and over the moon! I was confused at first as I was still with S... But, after a lot of unhappy run in's with S, I realised that D was the one for me. He made me happy - He challenged me mentally... And despite the problems we had in the past, I realised that the time we had spent apart was a good one and it had made me realise a lot of things, most of all that I need my friends and that D was far from being that bad! In fact, he is my soulmate and I say that sincerely and from the bottom of my heart.

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The Date...

I met D on Thursday. It was lovely to see him! (Again!) Our plan was to go outdoor ice skating, but I got sent home from work for being hung over and he was going to belgium the next day, so I didn't want him to get a cold! So we just went to dinner and had a couple of drinks at his local pub... It was a lovely night and the food was delicious!

Friday...

I met up with Harry, who is a friend of Tim who is a friend of D... lol! He's 19, but very mature and funny! We had a couple of drinks after I met with S to collect my money. S was cold and really horrible to me! He was supposed to be taking me out to dinner that night to give me my money after I had a drink with Harry, but he'd rathe go out with his work colleagues. It was supposed to be our goodbye dinner as in 3 months he had NEVER - Yep NEVER taken me out! But that didn't happen and he just treated me like shit for the rest of the night! Harry and I went to meet Tim and it was a genuinely nice night!

Saturday...

The rudeness continued - I got 2 missed calls and a nasty message from S at 1.30am. I called him back and we spoke. He just kept going on about random shit as he does when he's had too many! He told me he'd be up before 12 to bring round my stuff that's at his!!! Was he? NO!!! Surprise surprise. This is no exageration, but S lets me down about 90% of the time! He never sticks to his word and he's terrible at taking responsibility for things which irritates me soooooo much! He'll just turn round and say f*&@ off to me!!! Which is another massive disrespectful thing to say to a woman! (If you can call me that hee hee!)

I eventually got hold of him at 1.20pm and he said that he couldn't talk as he was about to throw up and that he's call me back. half an hour wen past and I had still not heard from him so I called him - no answer - I called a few more times, then I got a text saying that he couldn't talk as everytime he spoke he threw up! I left it 2 mins and I called back! What a surprise - My phone flashed up "call waiting" - He was on the phone! The guy is a compulsive liar at times - That just pissed me off beyond belief. He didn't pick up for ages - Then I called him from my mum's chip - He picked up!!! I was so angry! we argued a bit, then I let him go and go to sleep. He said he'd drop my stuff round later on in the afternoon.

I text him saying that I would come to his and give him a hand (yes... nice person!!!), which I did - On the way over, he texts me and tells me that he's locked out of the house. How convenient! He had to break the lock apparently! (Looked fine wehn I got to his!) He told me he couldn't come to mine with all my stuff... By this time I was FUMING - I had just travelled from South London to East London to get my stuff (AND it was just to help him!) and now he was telling me that he couldn't help me!

Anyway, I got to his and said that I had had a long trip, and could I have a cup of tea... He said to me "Uhhhh, not really, I am very tired!" I was speechless! I had just come ALL that way for nothing, because of him and now he was denying me a cup of tea? He followed it up with "I have no milk anyway!" So I said fine, the least you can do is get me a drink! So he did! I tried to speak to him, beut every time he just told me to F off... charming!!! Eventually, I said to him, "Do you REALLY expect me to drag this massive bag across London by myself?" to which he answered "Well I am not doing it today!" - The bag comes up to my lower ribs and is massive - I am 5'4 and weigh 7 stone! lol! He's 6' and weighs 15 Stone and even HE struggled to take it outside!!! I got 4 houses down the road and burst into tears - I called my Dad and he told me to take it back and he'd help me the next day! So I did and I went home to go out with the girls...

Saturday night was amazing. I went out with Olivia and Joanna. It was a great night! I also met one of my idols - Freddie Ljungberg from The Arsenal! I was so happy! lol! So a rubbish day and an amazing night!!!

Sunday...

Sunday morning, I gave S the chance to bring round my stuff... Which he did - He tried it on when he was round, but he was going no where!!! lol! Anyway - I chilled out at home and then I got a much awaited text!
Hi Swanny, hope you had a nice weekend. I'm back now and have brought you back 2 presents

I was over the moon - I couldn't stop grinning! So I replied:
Welcome home Pea. 2 presents, who's a lucky gairl then! So when do I get to see them? Thank you

He then asked me out that night and I was so excited, I couldn't contain myself! ha ha!

So we went to the cinema then back to his to chill out! It was really nice - He helped me put some tunes on my phone and it was a memorable night! So I know that I am 100% for D. S has deadened me... I can't live with someone that treats me with such low resepct - especially when I have been there for him, kept him going financially and given him my all!!!

So... there we have it! The mother of all turn arounds and the mother of all updates! ha ha!

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Much needed update!!!

2005-11-21T10:01:21+01:00

Hiya guys

It's been an awful long time since my last update. Now as you may know, before my current departing from S, I was previously with D. Now D and I were together for 2 years (officially, Unofficially 4!). Now, S and I got together a week (yes a week - I know! Not good!) after D and I split up. Most might say it was a rebound. I can tell you here and now, that, that could not be further from the truth.

OK, so anyway. After I wrote that blog I got on with things, saw my friend Julie and went home to my folks. The week after, S asked me back, so I said yes... I had football tickets to Fulham and Man City for that Saturday, so I asked S, but he was working. The only other person I could ask really was D. He said he'd go, so all was good!

Sat came and D and I got on just as well as we ever had! He's a great guy, but is not great at dealing with important and upsetting issues, which in turn made us argue and he's not very nice or patient when arguing! But anyway - We had a great time! I saw S afterwards and spent most of the night eplaining to him that D and I had fun but that was all that went on - which WAS all that went on - We had a good time catching up. (NB - We hadn't seen eachother since the day we split up!)

S was very annoying for the next couple of days. He was paranoid about D. It was getting to me. Tuesday I was meant to be seeing S but he let me down (Again!). I bumped into D in Canary Wharf and we decided to go to the cinema together. We watched Saw 2! It was good and yet again, he didn't try anything on - but it was just nice to see him again. I made sure before I went that S knew. I didn't want to keep anything from him. I would do nothing wrong and that was that! Afterwards I suggested going for a drink - Well, that turned into food instead. I forgot to turn my phone back on loud. I had 2 missed calls and 4 messages. Cutting a long story short, S wasn't happy and was being mean, even though I had done NOTHING wrong and D knew about him etc etc. I ended up crying at the table... D then said as I picked up my phone "can we talk?" - I put the phone down and he went into how much he'd enjoyed himself with me the past couple of times. He then followed it up with "I was thinking that maybe we should give it another go..." This spun me out and I went to S's as he'd flipped out. I told D I didn't think it was good timing, but that I cared about him a lot!

I know I am missing out a lot of info here, but, basically S and I sorted things, we went to Liverpool for his Sisters engagement party. It was lovely in Liverpool... I can honestly say I fell for S in a big way there! We came back though and he was back to his old ways of accusing me that I was too much, so we have now finished again! Time to start fresh - We gave it a good go...

I just have no luck with men...!

JM xx

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It's Over and I feel Awful!

2005-10-28T09:58:30+02:00

I am feeling a little shakey this morning. I didn't eat last night and I know that isn't a good idea... But I spent the majority of the night at S's, trying to understand what's happened and what's gone wrong! I cried a lot. A hell of a lot. He kept hugging me and kissing my head and cheek! It's not meant to happen like this and I do love him... More than I can explain on here.

When I got to his, he had all my stuff already packed up and ready to go O V E R... It hit me. I am not sure how I will bounce back from this one. I felt so at ease with him, I was falling very fast and I guess that's what made me become... what's the word?... needy, clingy... I don't know!

One things for sure - I left more confused than when I got there! Whilst watching the TV, I leaned over and hugged him. He hugged me back and then kissed my cheek, he then went for my lips and we ended up in an intese embrace/kiss... one thing led to another and then - YEP, you guessed it... lets just say the light went off

I can't even talk about this... not now!

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2005-10-26T10:12:55+02:00

A more intimate entry this time... I haven't really been documenting how I feel quite as much as I use to. Which I think is a good thing really... I feel more controlled! Things happened, however, that I found both upsetting and bizzare.

S was unwell at work (apparently) yesterday. Bear in mind he was due to come over to mine after work, so anything is possible! He always lets me down when he is due to come over to my place! It upsets me so much... Anyway, right up to when he was leaving work, he was still saying, 'yeah, I'll come to yours' etc. etc. Then he suddenly logged off messenger. I didn't think any more of it! I text him asking him where he was and got no repy for 15 minutes. He replied saying that he was going home as he didn't feel great, despite me offering to cook and make him tea etc. last night. Before he left work, he seemed well up for it! I was going to cook a chilli con carne for him. Lucky I didn't go out and buy the ingredients.

Anyway - I called him after work and I wasn't happy. I said to him that he always seemed to be tired or ill or both, when he was due to stay at my house! I told him that it upset me and I was starting to take it personally. I just feel that I am always making the effort for the men I end up being with! It's not fair - It was the same with D and I really don't want this relationship to go that way!

So... He shouted at me loads and hung up 4 times - I was gutted and in tears... He didn't seem to care! I tried explaining that I wasn't shouting at him and that he was just tired and to calm down! He did a little but was still extremely hostile! I was at a loss of what to do as I didn't want to turn up on his doorstep, I didn't do anything wrong. So I went to the cinema to watch the Corpse Bride.

As I stood on the train, tears were in my eyes, this guy was bothering me so so much. When I am with him, we are fabulous. We have been brilliant recently and I cannot understand his mood!?!?! He text me saying that we should maybe have some space and stuff, which, we do go out without eachother and see our friends etc... I think he was still mad!

I watched the film - My mind was pretty far away though. I kept getting emotional during the film and when it finished, I was even more emotional as before. So I sat on the train home still with tears in my eyes thinking "why me? What have I done wrong?" I mean, all I do in this life of mine is try and make people happy, so why do I end up just pushing them away? It doesn't make sense to me!

Once I got home, I went straight to bed and put on 'Donnie Darko'. Nikki, my new flatmate came in after about an hour of the film and was chatting to me. When she went I turned off the TV and went to sleep. My mind filled with a million questions and fears... :faint:

I slept well though and this morning I called him to make sure he got up for work. He answered and we had a good chat (kinda). He told me to call him again at 8am to make sure he was up, which I did but I still can't get hold of him and it's now 9.10am. I have to say, I am really worried!!! I don't know what's going on, I really don't. But I know if things don't work out with S, it's going to break my heart... again! :cry:

Anyway - I will wait for his call... I think I am in love now and theres no going back I pray to God that he doesn't treat me badly.

See ya guys...

FB xx

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sleepless nights...

2005-10-20T13:16:52+02:00

It was my second night in my new flat last night... S stayed over! I had more sleep than the first night, but, still not lots. S kept pulling the covers off me! Pain in the arse! So I am a little tired AGAIN today!

I ordered a laptop the other day! I can't wait for it to come! It's due next week - It's a nice Sony Vaio... Good spec for what I paid! £650 - 80gig hard drive, 512 RAM and it has a DVD writer, which is all I wanted really! Now all I need to do is sort out Broadband! *sigh*

Work has been a lot better - I have thrown myself into it more. Lots to improve on though! I'll get there though, I know I will!

Anyway - Only a quick one today... Speak to you all soon

Love and Hugz

JM xx

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Haven't updated in a while... but here u go...

2005-10-19T12:08:16+02:00

I have not updated in a while! In fact, it's over a week. I know that is not like me, but I have had a lot going on in the past week! I am presuming most of you have seen my pics from a couple of weeks ago. I now have EVEN more from last weekend! Not bad going huh?! 2 nights out in 2 weeks - I am now not very well off! lol!

In the past week, I have been working (as usual), seeing S(as usual) and going out! I went out with Ollie and S to see MJ Cole which was a blast! Apart from when we had to go home as I had just managed to blag VIP tickets and S needed to go home as he had work. I was gutted as I really wanted to stay and that night was supposed to be me and ollie only, so we would have stayed, but I know I would have got a backlash of "you fancy ollie" etc etc from S as he is extremely insecure!

The update on me and him though is that our relationship is improving quite a lot! He's invited me to his sisters engagement party, which I thought I'd never go to! I really hope we can prove to her how happy we are! Things really have turned around, I have sat down and spoken to him about what has been bothering me etc... and he seems to be listening. He's been calling me more, emailing me more and telling me he loves me lots, so I can't argue with that!

I am also starting to feel very different towards him! I think I am falling I think that's a good thing! It all feels very natural!!!

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Update...

2005-10-12T11:12:33+02:00

I haven't really updated in a while!

I had a good weekend, chilled for a lot of it, but out in the evenings. I went to 93 feet east on Saturday night! Got hammered. I went with Toni, Ollie and Ste... It was a good night until the end when Ste flipped out at me and basically said he didn't trust me! We've sorted that out now though! Crazy!

Sunday night I took my Mum, Dad and Brother out for a curry for my Dad's birthday! That was really nice! We hd a laugh! I love my family so much!

I pick up my key to my new place tomorrow! Can't wait! Ollie is helping me move on Saturday! Will be good! MJ Cole is also plying in Herbal on Sat night so I will be going to see that too! Yay...

Other than that Not much else had really happened! I got my hair done last night and that's about it! I get the photo's to the weekend today! Again - I am looking forward to that!

Sorry it's such a shit update... I do update elsewhere in more detail so if you would like the link, then let me know! Email me on leila.gilley@gmail.com

Okay guys...

Ciao Ciao... JM xx

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Where ever I lay my hat...

2005-10-05T11:40:16+02:00

Well, a bit more of an inspired effort today!!! I have some wonderful news... I will no longer be homless after leaving my flat on the 24th of this month! I found a great place located right by a train station, 1 stop from London Bridge! It's next to nothing for the rent "290 inclusive of ALL bills - Yes, I did say ALL bills! I am over the moon!

I got a call from this girl yesterday saying she had a room in South Bermondsey, so I was like ummmmm ok, not quite where I want to be, but tell me about it! I went to see it and the place is lovely! The double room and £290 inclusive did it for me I guess!!! I took it straight away! I am moving in on the 15th of this month and I just can't wait! I really want time to fly by so that I have my nice new room with my nice new flatmate.

My new flatmate is into everything that I am in to and she has a daughter of 6. She's so sweet. I think I am going to love it there! yay! What a pressure lifted! I just can't wait!

Anyway - That was my night really - Other than that, I went to my S's and watched James Bond! I think Brosnan is an awful Bond and I hate being put through such shite on a Tuesday night! lol! No one can compare to Connery or Moore!!! They are the BEST!!!

I am really tired this morning! I nearly didn't get in on time! Bad Girl!!! But I am here now and on time I am pleased to add! So I had better do some work!

See y'all later!!!

JM xx

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2005-10-03T10:22:29+02:00

Well... after my 'negative' posts it is a refresing change to be able to update on a Monday morning in a positive and upbeat fashion! Yes... I only put on a pic last time, just so that you guys knew that I was still here - And that I kinda like that pic ha ha!

Anyway... Since last weeks post/s a quite a bit has happened. Well, Pete did get paid, which was nice! And he was pretty generous with it!!! He bought me a Gameboy Advanced game (Finding Nemo and Monsters Inc.), he got me a little pink stereo, he also got me a TV/DVD all in one! I was well chuffed! Saturday we spent chilling out, eating pizza, playing the playstation and watching DVD's which was quite nice! So that was my Saturday.

Yesterday we went to the pub and watched the mighty Gunners beat a 10 man Birmingham 1-0. Yes... Poor I know! But it's 3 points and that's all I care about! I don't mind if we go back to the boring, boring Arsenal that only ever won 1-0, coz at least we'd be winning which is more than I can say for the team right now! I mean we lost to Middlesborough the other week!!! What was that all about!! lol!

Anyway... My cousin came to the pub. It was nice to see her! Missed her really. She's doing really well for herself now and I am really happy for her. Pete's sister has gone back to Liverpool now. So I guess it really is friendship over! Gutted, but you never know, she might come round!

Time to work I think!

Speak later guys...

PS. Fuck Chelsea and Fuck Lampard!!! :XX" class="middle" border="0"> Bastards!!!

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Liverpool Vs Chelsea - sigh

2005-09-29T10:11:13+02:00

Well last night was the night of Liverpool Chelsea - Pretty boring game that Liverpool SHOULD have won to be honest! Nevermind - They have them in the league on Saturday and I hope Liverpool kick the scumbags arses!:XX" class="middle" border="0">

After work, I met up with an old work colleague! He's so annoying, but his hearts in the right place. As I have to move out after the 24th of October, I am pretty screwed when it comes to finding a place! He has a room, it's in the perfect location, but it's just a room and there is no lounge so I think I am going to pass! I don't pay much now and I am living by Canary Wharf, which is a great location! I want to move a little closer to S, so I'll just have to keep on looking I think!

Things with S are cool... Although, I find it a little starnge that he just doesn't hold my hand anymore. I'll grab his and he'll hold it for a moment and then pretend to fumble for something in his pockets and not hold my hand again! It's weird - NOT that I am going to dwell on it! I guess he's just not that type of person! It's just something I have noticed! I am pretty affectionate when it comes to things like that and I like holding hands etc... when I am out! *shrug* Oh well... I think it's probably because I got used to that with D in all honesty - It's not something that really bothers me!

Anyway - I am off to do some work - see ya

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2005-09-28T10:59:19+02:00

Morning...

Yes... I do over react. Turns out he was just busy at work yesterday. What is wrong with me? I mean, I jump to the most ridiculous conclusions. I know why it is though...

After all of my past (and failed) relationships, the first thing is that I am insecure. I am worried of being taken for granted and walked all over.

Secondly, with my past relationships, I had known them for a while before 'getting together' with them... So I was already well aware of how they are, what they do etc... With S, I am still learning on a daily basis! So this is proabably the main reason I have been worried. We are still getting to know eachother and not everything that my exes did, he will do.

So this is why I need a fresh everything, hence this new journal!
I don't really want to be reminded too much of the past - I just want to live in the present. Looking to the future is just stupid at this point. We haven't been together long so we can't be sure whether things will work out and we are compatible! One things for sure is that I feel like he's my Best Friend! So that is always a good thing!

Last night, I watched the Football at S's place! The mighty Arsenal (with their second team I might add) beat the Dutch... I was so relieved! C'mon you Gunners!

After that we watched 'Save the Last Dance' which was a great film! Nice 'lil chick flick! It was nice being with S after not seeing him for a few days! *sigh*

Time to work I think!

Ciao ciao xx

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Arrraaagghhhh...

2005-09-27T18:38:48+02:00

Just spoke to him! AGAIN I am worrying over nothing! I HAVE to stop worrying or I WILL lose him! He'll get pissed with me stressing all the time

I think it's because I am still getting to know him! All my exes I knew for years... Oh my dear god!!! Pull it together you crazy mare!!!

Nearly home time! Yay! >" class="middle" border="0">

Anyway - Have a nice night!

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Totally confused!

2005-09-27T10:53:56+02:00

Well... Last night like I said I didn't see S. I went home to my Mum and Dad's and watched the footy. Despite my early night the night before, I went straight to bed after the football!!! Was tired you see...

My friend Sez text me a couple of times, she seems to think there is an alternative reason as to why S doesn't seem to want to see me! I really don't think this is the case though. She reckons that since he's been back from Liverpool he now wants his space, so what happened in Liverpool...

I don't see it like that at all though! I mean, things were going too fast and although I have sorted my head out now, I guess the damamge has been done! So he is going to take a couple of steps backwards! I really don't see what her problem is though - Yeah, she has the perfect relationship, but some of us may not. Yeah... I'd love to spend more time with S, but right now he doesn't want that and I am not about to push! He knows how I feel about him!

Anyway - Last night, after the football, I went to bed. I missed a text and a call from S. A little gutting, but it was nice to see he had called! Said he missed me He mailed me this morning though asking why I didn't reply or call back. I just said sorry and followed it up with "I take it you didn't have an early night afterall?" I didn't mean it stroppily though, just a statement. He replied saying "I won't bother then next time!" I was like - "I wasn't having a go, I was sleeping - got an early night!" Talk about stressed! I know I am right now - Only coz I am little confused about how he feels, that's all!

Anyway - Good news is, I am supposed to be seeing him tonight! Missed him and his lovely hugs!

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A little upset...

2005-09-26T18:46:08+02:00

I was supposed to see S tonight, but he's "too tired" before he said that he said he may have to work at his other place - Something is telling me that he's just not that into me anymore. It's a little shit as I have fallen for the guy - I kinda thought he had fallen for me... But I guess it's not the case anymore after the past couple of weeks.

Not sure how to play it - I have just left him to it! He knows that I am not happy, but y'know we'll see - I am supposed to see him tomorrow, but we'll see what happens when tomorrow comes!

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Calmer...

2005-09-26T11:06:20+02:00

After I updated last night, S called me - we chatted for a bit and you know what? I am worrying over nothing... AGAIN! He seems fine and we're both looking forward to seeing eachother tonight.

I missed him... He's mailing me now! Such a stimulating convo - lol! This is how its gone:

S: Hiya
Me: Hiya...
S: You ok?
Me: Yeah, you?
S:Yeah I'm fine

How funny is that!!! Awwww... It's better than not getting anything at all... He makes me smile, even when he does just say Hiya! lol! I love him!

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A time to think...

2005-09-25T22:47:01+02:00

It's been a good weekend. Have been without S this weekend and I have missed him. But I need to let him have his space! I mean, I think I might have pushed him too far anyway and I guess he could finish it at any point.

One thing I have got from this week is that I have got great feelings for him. I am inlove, no matter what these people say to me about 'you can't fall that fast'. Truth is, I CAN and I HAVE... End of!!! And, further more, I really shouldn't have even comtemplated what people said as I KNEW what I felt!

I just feel a fool for what I have done. I am just being me now - I guess he'll just take it or leave it! I hope not - I can see a futre with him and I want it to stay that way!

Anyway - I'm tired - going to watch the rest of touch of frost!!!

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A little unexpected surprise evening!!!

2005-09-23T18:51:48+02:00

Tonight I was meant to be meeting S for a drink - which I was really looking foward to - Now that we have sorted our shit out, I have no reservations about us at all! Mmmmmmmmm he's so nice!

Anyway - I was then not going to see him until Monday/ Tuesday which I still probably won't, but the fact I'm now going to his tonight, instead of having a 'quick drink' is wicked!!! At least I get to stay at his and wake up beside him tomorrow morning!

So tonight will be a vodka fueled evening with burger, chips and gravy! >" class="middle" border="0"> Lots of laughs and lots of hugs... I'm so happy I'm with him, I really feel like I have landed on my feet.

They have just said we can go home! So I'm off now! Ciao...

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This is my first post

2005-09-23T12:00:00+02:00

I have decided to set up a new blog - I do have many others, but I have come to a new point in my life and it's all up from here *I hope*

Well this is me:

I'm 23 and I live in London. I have a boyfriend, whom I haven't been with for that long, but I have a mighty good feeling about! In fact he is one of my reasons for having my new blog... I just feel that I need a total break from the old and seeing as I am crazy about this guy, I want NO reminders of the past!

Something happened in the last week that opened my eyes to my feelings and where I want my life to go. It's something that has changed me both emotionally and mentally!

Now in this diary, I won't have actual names, in case someone that may know me or them comes across this blog. It's happened in the past, so I can't see why it wouldn't happen again!

Anyway.. More about me...

I like going out and having a good 'ol dance. I love football and am a massive Arsenal fan - Come on you gunners! I like travelling and places I have been to include, North Cyprus, Dubai, Prague, Fuertaventura and Verona. I like gallaries and museums, but I don't tend to get to visit many! There are lots more to me, but you'll just have to read and discover...

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My mis-interpretation of Life

Long time no post...

The mother of all updates

Much needed update!!!

It's Over and I feel Awful!

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sleepless nights...

Haven't updated in a while... but here u go...

Update...

Where ever I lay my hat...

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Liverpool Vs Chelsea - *sigh*

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Arrraaagghhhh...

Totally confused!

A little upset...

Calmer...

A time to think...

A little unexpected surprise evening!!!

This is my first post

Liverpool Vs Chelsea - sigh