Hiya guys

It's been an awful long time since my last update. Now as you may know, before my current departing from S, I was previously with D. Now D and I were together for 2 years (officially, Unofficially 4!). Now, S and I got together a week (yes a week - I know! Not good!) after D and I split up. Most might say it was a rebound. I can tell you here and now, that, that could not be further from the truth.

OK, so anyway. After I wrote that blog I got on with things, saw my friend Julie and went home to my folks. The week after, S asked me back, so I said yes... I had football tickets to Fulham and Man City for that Saturday, so I asked S, but he was working. The only other person I could ask really was D. He said he'd go, so all was good!

Sat came and D and I got on just as well as we ever had! He's a great guy, but is not great at dealing with important and upsetting issues, which in turn made us argue and he's not very nice or patient when arguing! But anyway - We had a great time! I saw S afterwards and spent most of the night eplaining to him that D and I had fun but that was all that went on - which WAS all that went on - We had a good time catching up. (NB - We hadn't seen eachother since the day we split up!)

S was very annoying for the next couple of days. He was paranoid about D. It was getting to me. Tuesday I was meant to be seeing S but he let me down (Again!). I bumped into D in Canary Wharf and we decided to go to the cinema together. We watched Saw 2! It was good and yet again, he didn't try anything on - but it was just nice to see him again. I made sure before I went that S knew. I didn't want to keep anything from him. I would do nothing wrong and that was that! Afterwards I suggested going for a drink - Well, that turned into food instead. I forgot to turn my phone back on loud. I had 2 missed calls and 4 messages. Cutting a long story short, S wasn't happy and was being mean, even though I had done NOTHING wrong and D knew about him etc etc. I ended up crying at the table... D then said as I picked up my phone "can we talk?" - I put the phone down and he went into how much he'd enjoyed himself with me the past couple of times. He then followed it up with "I was thinking that maybe we should give it another go..." This spun me out and I went to S's as he'd flipped out. I told D I didn't think it was good timing, but that I cared about him a lot!

I know I am missing out a lot of info here, but, basically S and I sorted things, we went to Liverpool for his Sisters engagement party. It was lovely in Liverpool... I can honestly say I fell for S in a big way there! We came back though and he was back to his old ways of accusing me that I was too much, so we have now finished again! Time to start fresh - We gave it a good go...

I just have no luck with men...!

JM xx