I am feeling a little shakey this morning. I didn't eat last night and I know that isn't a good idea... But I spent the majority of the night at S's, trying to understand what's happened and what's gone wrong! I cried a lot. A hell of a lot. He kept hugging me and kissing my head and cheek! It's not meant to happen like this and I do love him... More than I can explain on here.

When I got to his, he had all my stuff already packed up and ready to go O V E R... It hit me. I am not sure how I will bounce back from this one. I felt so at ease with him, I was falling very fast and I guess that's what made me become... what's the word?... needy, clingy... I don't know!

One things for sure - I left more confused than when I got there! Whilst watching the TV, I leaned over and hugged him. He hugged me back and then kissed my cheek, he then went for my lips and we ended up in an intese embrace/kiss... one thing led to another and then - YEP, you guessed it... lets just say the light went off

I can't even talk about this... not now!